I'm a __________. Oh I don't know what I am.
I remember years ago a blogging friend did a post titled, "I'm a plant". I've remembered it ever since.
Today I've been bored out of my mind almost to tears. How does a mother of seven get bored? Boredom has nothing to do with being busy. I know myself. Most of the time I'm really independent and don't need much from people. I remember how dumb I thought it was in high school when friends needed a friend to go with them to get a drink at the drinking fountain. Seriously? You couldn't find it yourself at the age of 17? But then there are times where I realize I want a friend to "go get a drink with me" because I like the friendship aspect of it.
Actually, this reminds me of another friend's post that she just recently wrote. I felt like I was reading all about myself as I read it.
Today though, and many other days, I need people. Not to help me out with anything, not needy friends, but just people to hang out with, to talk to, someone to call me.
I feel like I came from the land of and live with "I don't need people-ers". Which I am definitely not!! I went to an open house for some friends that are moving away (Who isn't these days? Stupid economy!) this past Saturday. I was in heaven. It was so much fun being "myself" laughing, giggling, and reminiscing about old inside jokes. I came home to tell D that I needed that. That I need people. That's what is weird. I don't always need them though.
Today I dreamed of the day where I can go get a job. Where I can interact with people and make them laugh, smile and feel comfortable.
Do you ever wonder if people know you exist? I'm sorry if you have and I haven't been more in tune to reach out to you. That's a lonely feeling. I know I don't reach out to enough people like I should. But those that I do, kind of wish they would call and see how I'm doing. But then I have to remember that everyone isn't like me. I'm dealing with a lot of "I don't need people-ers".
Just had to write down my thoughts for the day. I'll be better soon. :) Perhaps it's because I've been without a car all day, the Olympics are running everyone's lives here, or the over cast day. Just had to write down my thoughts for the day. I'll be better soon. All I know is that today I didn't want to be one of those "I don't need people-ers"!
ITP-a year later
2 months ago